the sea is at rest

after an evening of talking, a night of thinking, and a long discussion, imma at peace with my decision.

VP i shall be, and i shall do it to the best,

if i have your vote

i dont mind being VP, my plans can still be implemented given that we have a great leader, so why not?

to be honest, the main and only grudge that i hold is not being able to compete against the "fame-seekers". i cringe at the fact that while i am confident that i have better experience and abilities, is prepared to step up to the plate and is ready for whatever gets thrown in my face, i cant stand proud and say "I Beat Them", fair and square. I cant bear it that when i know i am more passsionate, they are proudly telling people that they are running for President while i am below them. I want to have my speech compete against theirs, and know that i am actually more qualified, if i am. i want to know that i am better. yes, im sorry to say that i can be very competitive against those people. i would not mind at all if i lost against a worthy opponent...

but i have a dream, a lil secret dream that shall remain hushed. one that surpasses posts, one that shines at the end of the tunnel. one that is a dream, one that i hope will materialize. and the first step to the ambitious longing, is sacrifice.

and thus sacrifice i shall.

this has brought me contentment.

and thus i plead, that you CIMP-ians vote for those who are actually up for the task. do not fill me with dissapointment as i watch student council crumble in the hands of others...

and with great humility i ask for your vote, i ask of you to vote for me, for reasons that are all too obvious to be explained...

and with this i hope, with great might, that the star at the end of the tunnel will shine in my palms.

i am at peace.

till i announce good news,
hugs and kisses

p/s : this is not my campaign speech -__-

the decided undecided.

since last semester i have dreamt of me as the president, the imaginary me planning out activities and theme days, dances and fun for the CIMP student body. yes i have been so determined to run for this post and i know that i can and will succeed, because i am confident enough to know that i am able to step up to the plate. i mean, i already have sketches of plans bobbing in my head.

yes, i have been so determined to give what the students deserve : a memorable semester.

but plans took a turn when school started.

to be honest i wasnt too glad to hear that a close friend of mine will be running, not because i think that that person will not be able to deliver, but because i have told that person that i will be running for president since months ago. imagine my position, wouldnt you feel kinda sorta dissapointed?its feels like a mini-version of betrayal but i didnt mind though, it wasnt a problem, not a competition.

and then z came announcing excitedly that he too will be running for president. this is a man of actions and words, he is a challenge and will be great leading the student population. Running against him would be a pleasure, but something was off, should i run for president? or should i run for something else? say vice?

i was in a dilemma.

on one hand, i would love z to win, and even if i lost against him, i would be contented just being a general member. but me running aganist z means others, that are running just for the fun of it, just for the fame of it, and would not satisfy would win before us wont it? and there goes the plans and dreams that we have for student coucil. we are the few that are actually passionate and want to do good for student coucil, who cares of the title?

on the other hand, i could run for something else, and have z win as pressie, and me as vice. (hopefully) this way we both have higher chances of achieving our goals. with me helping z and z with me, imagine all the glorious activities the students can look forward too! it sounded good dont it? i've agreed to this, and would and will have ppl to vote for both z and me, but alas deep down inside still, the sea is not at peace, its roaring waves bubbles ever more ferociusly. something does not feel right, its feel uncomfortable, out of place.

it feels UNSATISFYING.

but i have told that i will run for vp.
what am i to do now?
will someone help make this decision feel better?
please?

"opportunities comes once in a lifetime,"

am i going against my own policy?

imma going on a journey.

another boring dose of Puteri Gunung Ledang today. this time we get to see Puteri and Hang Tuah ai2 mei4 scene. i want to ask them if they got "sou4 jin4 wei1 qu1" anot. ohh and the mountain scene looks awesome!! the moutain looks so serene la, the peak of gunung ledang looks simply breathtaking... cant wait to go up Gunung Ledang soon!! but i heard that after the PGL production, they totally destryoed the mountain with their rubbish equiptments and stuff. if its true, damn them. D:

*****

im going to the centre of the earth this weekend with meghdad and smi. lolz. its free! the only thing we might have to sacrifice is our life because its like so dangerous to get in and out? but who cares about danger when u get to experience a journey and breathtaking views that awesome!? i wanna see the blue shiny birds and man-eating plants and dinosaurs!! i wanna sail in a dinosaur-skull-boat and stand on magnetic rocks!!! i wan i wan i wan~ :D imma going this weekend :D

journey to the centre of the earth is actually quite cool, you guys should go watch it! the really weird and funny thing during the movies was i was sitting between Smi and Meghdad, and they "wah...." and "wow..." and "WOAH!" at the same time. lolness. -___- and Meghdad gave me chocolates! *yay* and they all learned Mei's Sign Language today :)

today was fun:) i actually havent had an outing like this in a long time. ( yes i know i sound so sad)

i wanna have more todays! :)

till i have another today,

hugs and kisses yo!

side B

its here! its here!!



my glasses its here! i shall call him Mr. Blu!

Dad is shaking his head because Me.Blu is rimless, very thin and really fragile and im a COW and i will break Mr.Blu in 2 days. I told Dad its unbreakable lens or something like that but Dad says unbreakable lens does not work for cows like me. :( Dad is mean.

for those of you that have forgotten how i look like or want to see me in glasses, scroll down! :D

SIDE A


SIDE B


so.. what say you?

ohh and im excited to have Mr. Blu because i can do this :


and this :

look im a pufffish!!

Who says i cant have fun with glasses? lols XD
imma gonna have fun with Mr.Blu :)

*yeay no more headaches no more squinting no more blurry words!*


till you see me with glasses,
hugs and kisses! <3

puteri gunung what?

watched Puteri Gunung Ledang today in malaysian studies class.

i loveeessss the visuals and setting and people they looked awesome, but the story is SOOOO FREAKING SLOWWW i so wanted to just lie flat on the table and sleep. even tortoise moves faster. and i was only watching hte beginning of the movie. boringness weyyy.

their silat moves looks like kung fu. i heard they fly later on in the movie. isn't that another kung fu signature?

Sultan ahmad-mahmud-something-something looks horny, porny horny.
Hang Tuah looks like he is going to commit suicide any minute now.
Puteri Gunung Ledang is so depressed and alone she might as well jumped of the gunung.

again, the setting and visuals are really really nice, the quality and intricate details is so beautiful, it pays just to try to stay awake and look at all the pretty moving pictures. Malaysian made? *banggas* (im patriotic ok)

i have to compare the movie to the book THE MALAY ANAL ANNALS. :D

imma dork in process

my glasses are coming tommorrow!! finally!
i left the first week of sem2 with my brain thumping against my skull and my eyes threatening to sink in and pop out at the same time... i think its because of all the squinting and blurry visioni had to endure all week.. its like watching a blur tv ever so often it gets so annoying.

i used to be proud to have perfect vision. perfect. when my eyes started to get blurry i ignored the fect that i need glasses for 2 months. eye doctor say no need to wear if dont want ma... its not seriously serious yet, so i decided dont care lah. but alas i gave up. just give me the damn glasses and i wear it with pride!

imma proud to have glasses soon :)

till i show you pictures of me looking awesome with glasses,
hugs and kisses

shake ur tail feathers :)

imma choreographing another version of Bop to the Top for a cimp performance that is coming soon.. this time, its a remixed version, and its gonna be tight !

i love teaching dances, but the only thing that bugs me alot when is comes to performaces is the practice time because everyone has a reason to not be able to come, and it gets really annoying especially when it come near performance day and people are not getting serious.
ohh and imma real perfectionist when it comes to performances which is good, but can be bad at times.hey, i just want us all to do well!

hopefully we'll do well, i know we'll do well :)
wish me luck!!!