a drag in our feet,
hunch in our backs,
sigh in our chest,
gloom around our neck,
weights on our chin,
despair in our wake.

misery, stop following me.

stuff you think that only happens on television, in the news, in hearsays, you think will only happen to someone else. But, to someone else, you are the someone else. So when it happens to you, it hits hard, real hard. Like a tsunami in your gut.

i dont know what to feel anymore. its empty and hollow and numb inside.

so so so tired.

i dont think it will ever curve the right way again.

escape is good because you can pretend that everything is alright for a little longer, :).

reality hits and it sucks.
ouch.

it can only get better from here, i hope.

nope, nothing.

its hard, when it hurts so much inside.
but i'll hold your hand.
if you're happy.
because no one deserves to be miserable, especially not you.

happiness comes at great costs,
this is on me. on me. on we.

so im counting to the days, that i wish will never come. and yet i wish it would to finally see a sunny day.

the heart cries,

the eyes fears,

the bags hold in the little tears.

nothing lasts.

dilemma dilemma dilemma

Mei ni tgh dilemma la. dilemma yang perlu diselesaikan secepat mungkin. decisions decisions i hate making decisions. especially one where experiences and money is on the line. oh gosh its Robest Frost's The Road Not Taken all over again.

Dear TMC ah dy and Janie ah my, if u see this, nak minta tolong bagi advice!

Phenomenal Women, by Maya Angelou

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman

Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

**

Phenomenal, thats me, and thats what every girl, lady and woman should be.
Beautifully and proudly said.
Thanks pao for sharing :)