how did i managed to be such an optimist for so long.
i guess its time,
when we grow up,
and question optimism
like how we question life
and stop believing.
optimism is hard, its so hard to stay positive. you can only do it for so long.
so this is what grief feels like, eh. heh.
and i heard its christmas,
a time where dreams come true and people are happy and there's supposed to be a warm fuzzy feeling just by hearing the happy christmas songs and festive air.
but happy songs are just so fucking annoying right now.
if dreams really do come true,
i plead dear santa,
i'd give you everything i have,
please just return everything to the way it was,
the way it's supposed to be.
if there's such thing as a christmas miracle,
make your magic work.
7 years ago