unexpected advise from a bull

be sure of what you want, do what you think is right but always listen to other people's advice. dont be too stubborn.

i need a drink

lifes too short to not get wasted.

it is not a good sign when u are told that u look tired almost everyday.
i dont feel tired though.
i feel like a tiger that just drank red bull.

or maybe just a buzzed up bee.

slept off the tired i've been feeling for the past couple of weeks because of the insane workload in one night.

after handing in my assignmnet, i reached home at 6, and died on my mums bed at 6.05.

forgot about dinner.
skipped dance class.
and totally slept through the minum session i was suppose to have with my friend.

im sorry, i was that tired.

woke up at 6.30 this morning, blurred, confused, and felt fucked up at myself.

Pulau Ketam for crosses today. twas fun weyh. loved the cycling around and the reminsicing of childhood kuala selangor trips. Pulau ketam is like Kuala Selangor without the crabs man. damn i miss kuala selangor gotsa get someone to take me there soon! oh and really cheap seafood. so it wasnt mindblastingly yummy but it was decent GOOD seafood. Who can ask for more when they are charging a table for 10 RM150 for6 seafood dishes and one soup man!

it was my cousins wedding today. Like the first thrid generation kid to get married at my mums side. First wedding since iono 30 years or so? so yeah, we're all really happy for Amy. and DAMN she's so pretty when she's dressed up. So guys, never underestimate a plain jane or an 'ugly girl' cause make up artist, hair dressers and a good tailor can do WONDERS!

and my arms are like really obvious tan lines thanks to cycling under the sun in Crab Island. I love it.

and the Director of Strategic Marketing from McCann Erikson came and gave a really good talk the other day. really eye opening. and its making me reconsider advertising Communications Marketing.

i hope Weber Shandwick can come give a talk soon too.. PR yo.

pissed with technology

one of the crappiest feeling ever is to work (very very) very hard with blood, sweat and tears on a project and not liking the end result.

zero budget and a sucky video camera = bad quality will be the death of my video making assignment..

boo.

i am tired.
it is tireing to be tired.

the problem with me is i live on stress. the little adrenalin rush through my head the juggling act, that balancing pole, the plate spinning, the acrobatic stunts, i live on being busy. it somehow makes me feel alive, and useful, and makes me feel like im doing something worthwhile.

I've tried free and easy for one semester. Though it was fun, and relaxing, and i got to go watch movie every week and karaoke every 2 weeks, and i got to spend loads of time with my friends, it made me lazy. very lazy. and when i got to working again at the end of the year, the red hot blood in me pumped though my veins again and i become unnessasarily ambitious, wanting to achieve everything, again.

it has always been like that, it used to be me, and 3 other co-curicullar activities, and dancing. now its me, and 2 other side jobs, and dancing.

its risky, its tireing, its a rollercoaster ride, but hey, im a juggler. I've been juggling all my life.
the key is to prioritize and not lose focus on the main prize.

now i just hope that i can survive this semester as a whole.

bye bye birdie.

in this case, birdie is my holidays.

and holidays was working days.

let pray home i can wake up to in time to catch the train in time to get to class in time.
i cant even catch the 7.15 train, what more the 6.45.

oh well, i've been going into my 8am class at 8.30 all these while anyways i guess another month or two wont hurt.