squares are for squares

hiya! im typing on my new old laptop! courtesy of my fabulous Aunt Lily (who always happen have a spare handphones and/or laptop when i needed one)!

it works fine!
its square.
it doesnt have WiFi.
hence, its old.
its a Twinhead.
its heavy.
ITS SQUARE!

have u ever seen a square laptop!? i have not! its always rectangular! even the annoyingly tiny ones are rectangular! call me ulu-jakun-kampung-whatchamacallme but i am typing on a square laptop! im just flabbergasted! its square!

show me a triangular laptop and i'll be your kangaroo.

caught in between dreams

is going to rewatch big bang theory again. a show about nerds that never gets old! now i want that theme song in my phone anyone has it?

how can something so wrong feels so right. will guilt or guilt triumph?

i cant stand the sight of my disgustingly disgusting blogskin already tried changing for the past 4 hours but its not working any volunteers?

I could have done better.

it was never girls night out, its always guys night out, and Mei. aren't u all used to it already.
good thing about that is less bitching and more chilling.

the closest thing i have to a girlfriend is Du just cause he has shinier nails then me and Ju just cause he bitches more than anyone else that i know.

2009 has been such a great year i cant believe its ending already.

the kindergarden is boring and empty when the kids are not around.

hopefully, a new second hand laptop by tomorrow. wishes that this one actually works properly.

mum went to singapore and came back with a whole bunch of hand me down clothes by my bro's girlfriend. a couple of cool dresses too. when will i ever wear them.

i have an affinity with second hand products. even my bed is third hand.

the joys of being the youngest child.

mum and dad keeps forgetting to get food for breakfast. we have nothing to eat.

hmm, bread. om nom nom.

2010.

thinking about vail. misses vail. needs to do another Vail.

people still think im studying in US. everyone assumes that i will be studying somewhere exotic and expensive, somewhere not malaysia.

Obama did not deserve that Nobel Prize, at least not yet. if they're gonna give Nobel Prizes to peple based on what they've said they might as well give one to Anwar.

why are you suddenly such a stranger. oh yeah, thats why. now stop it, coz you're hurting me.

ouch.

ambiguity is the name of the game.

jealous?

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this has been another random thought session, with Mei.

chilled christmas

mum and dad is away at Singapore for the holidays..
they've been gone for 2 whole days! returning soon though, in a couple of hours..
im in mum's room, cuddled in the bed, the tv on, laptop in my hands, enjoying the silence (and nag-free freedom) while it lasts..

this could possibly be the best xmas gift they've given me ever! nyahaha

had the most soothingly comforting chilling Christmas with my favouritest people yesterday!

breakfast with Julian with yum yum yummy bak kut teh,
a walk in the park with yum yum yummy Zac,
and a chillout night with and sudden trip to the lake with yum yum yummy beers, courtesy of Abdu and the company of cinderella Chee Yong.

we could have enjoyed the beers while watching planes fly but noooooooooo, cinderella had to be home on time. i guess LCCT will have to wait till the next time then.

is it pointless to have so many inside jokes in my posts that no one but me will ever understand? given the fact that the people that will acutually understand the jokes dont read blogs. at least not mine!

merry christmas,

i hate my blog.

the skies the limit

underestimate yourself and inconfidence defeats you.

overestimate yourself and you stay in the same stagnant loop over and over again. (plus it makes you an arrogant bitch)

so what do you do?

keep in balance? to always keep yourself in a neutral standpoint? then how do you assess yourself, how do you strive to get better?

Judimar Hernandez, whom i had the honor to learn contemporary dance from says to always live on the edge. well maybe those were not her exact words but she did say the word 'edge'! She says you should never feel comfortable when you're dancing. never stay in the comfort zone. just when you feel like you've got the hang of it, stretch those legs a little longer bend a little lower lift yourself a little higher! and thats how you'll improve. you should always feel like you're on the edge, cause when you push yourself over what you taught was your limit, you exceed your own expectations, and thats when you improve. stay in the comfort zone and you can only be that good while everyone else overtakes you.

wise words from a dancer, and I think it relates to everything else in life.

Confidence is the booster ; Humilty is the driver.
When you're confident, you feel good, you do good. and it shows. But humilty keeps you in check, it drives you to be better, forces you to learn from others and yourself. and you're surprise when you discover that you can do much much more. It'll be one of those amazingly-puzzling "WOW I can do that???!!!" eureka moments! like when superman discovered he had laser vision.

We are all better then we think we are.
Potential is the hidden gem waiting to be unearthed.

saturated

3 hours of cycling and 5 hours of dance i'm tired off my feet!

bukit cahaya was fun i miss the place so much! much needed exercise for us. seeing that after form 5 all our stamina went down the drain..... except for basnojj coz he's kiat like that.
it was good to meet the juniors too, although it was for only a short while, i miss them even more...

met the most unexpected person at the dance workshop today i couldn't believe my eyes! who would have taught he, of all people, is majoring in dance! i. am. so. jealous. i wish i could just screw the priorities and responsibilities for once and drop all and just, dance.

i learnt how to toy with gravity.

im so grateful i can speak mandarin.

another hectic rushy morning tomorrow.. gotta go in the Kindergarden before 8, decorated my classroom with the miserable measly stuff that i've painstakingly made with my own 2 hands, open day starts at 9, gotta leave and get to Bukit Tinggi by 10, leave for KL and start dancing at 11!

i needs to sleep.
nights!

what a meaninglessly sucky post.

They love coloring

I already had 2 days of playing the character of Teacher Mei, the sweet, nurturing, patient yet strict at times teacher to 10 or so kindergartners. *gags*

There is Kaushal, a 5 year old boy that's smart and unabashed, and gives the correct roar to a lions voice, rather polite and obedient too.

There's Arif, the sweetest and cutest looking little angel that melts my heart everytime i see his smile. Quite and shy, bound to grow into a dashing young man.

There is Sophia, loves running, and a rather brave little girl!

there's Batricia who still gets confused with her colours, but likes holding on to our hands time to time, pulling us to wherever she goes. She's slow and meticulous when she colours, but she does a very god job!

There's Jia Chun, little 2 year old who wouldnt let go of mummy the whole time. When he got used to playing around, mummy secretly left, and he sulked and cried and looked out the front gate the whole time. I spent my first day coaxing him, but failed terribly.

and then there's Gavin. a headache. listens to you when he wants to, when he doesnt want to, he'll be doing his own thing ignoring all you have to say. Likes include eating (alot) and money. He pretends to smoke in class, sit and walks abit like gangster, very cute and amusing, but secretly dangerful. Thank God there's only one Gavin in class! otherwise all the teacher will just muntah darah.

I love the fact that its a very multiracial class, with very multiracial teachers, in fact, I'm the only chinese teacher. I really hope these kids will be able to see beyond colours and judge people on whats inside, not out. :)

Official classes starts January, thats when the real actions starts. They're around the kindergarden this month for a month long camp thingy, 2 hours every alternate day or so. For now, im just having fun with the kids, getting to know them, teaching them colour by numbers, showing them animals on a flashcards and stuff like that!

I love kids, although some are quite a handful. Many come telling me that its very hard to be a kindergarden teacher, you'll be so mad you'll start vomiting blood. True, but I love their innocence, and how can u stay mad at a cute face like that? You're furious at Gavin for not doing his work but the next thing he does is so adorable you just go jelly. I guess you just have to be very very patient, and forgiving. and give them lots of stars! I'm having loads of fun playing with my kids! absolutely loving my job so far! the only thing is I have to decorate a my classroom by myself! thats 4 walls, and too many color paper and glue! I'm not very creative, but i guess it'll do, at least kids don't complain!

I've been wanting to do something like this for so long its feels like ahh.. satisfaction. can't say much bout the job for now its only been 2 days but im super-stoked for real classes to start! and more kids will be coming in and i shall be the class teachers to a bunch of 5 year olds! and they will learn basic mandarin from me because i am their mandarin class teacher and they are the white paper and i shall paint their base with beautiful colourful ink and from no mandarin they will be able to understand the language because of me can u tell that im stoked to give a lil something back to the community although its not charity its still counts as something doesn't it i'm gonna stop babbling now back to my cutting my colour papers bye.

Teacher Mei they'll call me

its official,
I am now a uncertified kindergarten teacher, teaching (of all things) mandarin.

imagine, me nurturing young minds, molding the leaders of tomorrow, setting a strong foundation in innocent little 3 year olds :)

yes laugh la laugh all you people laugh and get it over with! even my dad laughed. thanks for being such a great encouragement. hemph.

i shall be working thru December and January mornings, and pass the baton to someone else come mid-February. They hired me cause they were desperate, but i was requested to look for someone else to replace me in February, any takers?

decided to try teaching for the experience. its not about the money, and believe me the salary is way sad. 5 days of promoter work can make up for the month's salary. Screw the money, i don't want to work in shopping malls and cafes doing meaningless work that is nothing but a waste of time. so what if i earn more, I learn nothing, and half of the time i just stand there looking like a sparkly lost Christmas ornament. I'd rather spend my hours doing something fulfilling, learning and earning in the process. even if i don't get paid. This holiday, its all about the experience.

plus, I'm going to make it a point to volunteer in PAWS.

by the end of the year, and end of the holidays. i can scratch no.23 off my 100thingstodobeforeidie list.

what a way to end the year eh!

have fun enjoying the last bits of 2009 guys, have fun while it last! <3

he called me a dudul head

i want blue hair.

Tuesdays with Morrie is overrated.

i gave up on reading I, Lucifer.

Midway thru A Fortune Teller Once Told Me and currently going on The Graveyard Book, by Neil Gaimann.

Watching Ninja Assasin did NOT make me like Rain, in fact, i despise him even more now.

Why do Mat Sallehs keep thinking they can make movies about the Asian culture? putting Asians into the movie does not make it real. DragonBall feature film was (apparently) shitty and Ninja Assasin was a whole bunch of fake.

I need to pen down a really good poem, but i feel so uninspired.

its the last month of the year.

is it weird to be proud to be able to tie my hair with nothing but a pen?

Guess who is the no.1 smartest person of the decade?
surprise surprise, its non other than the inventors of Google, Larry Page and Sergey Brin! well, they did revolutionized the way people search for information, and porn!

Steve Jobs at number 2!

Jimmy Wales, a.k.a. the founder of Wikipedia is at number 11!

founder of Amazon, Jeff Bezos is at number 12.

notice how they're all people who revolutinized technology?

im just surprised the guys who invented Facebook is not on there. oh well, maybe next decade..

Politicians are there too.. no Obama is not on the list, but Hillary Clinton is, at number 4. you've got to give her credit for being the first potential women president candidate!

For some reason, I was very inspired to see the Prime Minister of India, Manmohan Singh at number 15. "Anyone who can obtain a Ph.D. in economics from Oxford and successfully manage the world's largest democracy has to be the smartest person in the world,” imagine, this guy, is responsible for "leading one of every six people on earth"!

and the most surprising man on the list? Ayman Al-Zawahiri. Field: Terrorism. Postition: the intellectual leader of Al-Qaeda!
for putting the whole world into a frenzy, plummeting the world's economy, and putting fear in everyone's mind, creating new themes on award-winning movies and books, i guess you do deserve the numbe 23 spot...

for the full scope on the 25 smartest people of the decade, go here! very interesting read, believe me!

3 decades later, u shall see me on the next 25 smartest people of the decade!